Ngeke Ngivumele iSchizophrenia Ichaze Ubungane Bethu

-Delile

• Ukuhlanganiswa ebuntwaneni
• Ukubhekana noshintsho
• Ubunzima, nethemba
• Ukubhekana namaqiniso anzima
• Izinsiza zokusiza abantu abane-schizophrenia

Inombolo yocingo yaseCalifornia yavela kumazisi wami futhi isisu sami sehla. Ngangazi ukuthi kubi. Ngangazi ukuthi kufanele kuhlobene noJackie. Ingabe udinga usizo? Ingabe ulahlekile? Ngabe ufile? Imibuzo ihamba ekhanda lami ngenkathi ngiphendula ucingo. Masinyane, ngezwa izwi lakhe.

"Cathy, nguJackie." Wezwakala ukuthi wethukile futhi wethukile. “Angazi ukuthi kwenzekeni. Athi ngigwaze umuntu. Uyaphila. Ngicabanga ukuthi bengicabanga ukuthi uyangidlwengula. Angikhumbuli. Angazi. Angikholwa ukuthi ngisejele. Ngisejele! ”

Ukushaya kwenhliziyo kwami ​​kwashesha, kodwa ngazama ukuhlala ngithule. Naphezu kwezindaba eziphazamisayo, ngangijabule ukuzwa izwi lakhe. Ngangikhanjelwe ukuthi wayesejele, kodwa ngakhululeka ngokuthi uyaphila. Angikholwanga ukuthi umuntu omnene futhi obuthakathaka njengoJackie angalimaza umuntu ngokomzimba. Okungenani, hhayi uJackie engangimazi… ngaphambi kokuba i-schizophrenia ikhule.

Ukugcina kwami ​​ukukhuluma noJackie ngaphambi kwalolo cingo bekuyiminyaka emibili ngaphambili lapho ebehambele ingane yami yokugeza. Wahlala kwaze kwaphela iphathi, wanganga wavalelisa, wagxumela iHummer yakhe yagcwala ophahleni ngezingubo, waqala ngemoto esuka e-Illinois eya eCalifornia. Angikaze ngicabange ukuthi uzofika lapho, kodwa wakwenza.

Manje, wayeseCalifornia nasejele. Ngazama ukumthulisa. “Jackie. Yehlisa kancane ijubane. Ngitshele ukuthi kwenzekani. Uyagula. Uyaqonda ukuthi uyagula? Uthole ummeli? Ngabe ummeli uyazi ukuthi ugula ngokwengqondo? ”

Ngaqhubeka ngamchazela ukuthi eminyakeni embalwa ngaphambi kokuba aye eCalifornia, wayeseqale ukukhombisa izimpawu zeschizophrenia. “Uyakhumbula uhleli emotweni yakho, ungitshela ukuthi ubone usathane ehamba emgwaqweni? Uyakhumbula ukumboza wonke amawindi asendlini yakho ngotape omnyama? Uyakhumbula ukholwa ukuthi i-FBI yayikulandela? Uyakhumbula ugijima endaweni evinjelwe esikhumulweni sezindiza i-O'Hare? Uyaqonda ukuthi uyagula, Jackie? ”

Ngemicabango ehlakazekile namazwi ahlabayo, uJackie wachaza ukuthi umvikeli wakhe wasesidlangalaleni wamtshela ukuthi unesifo sengqondo futhi wayeqonda kahle, kodwa ngangibona ukuthi udidekile futhi akazange aqonde ukuthi wayehlala nenye yezindlela ezinzima kakhulu zengqondo ukugula. Impilo yakhe yayishintshe unomphela.

Ukuhlanganiswa ebuntwaneni

Mina noJackie sakhulela ngaphesheya komgwaqo sisuka komunye nomunye. Sasingabangane abasheshayo kusuka ngesikhathi esihlangana ngaso okokuqala esitobhini sebhasi ebangeni lokuqala. Sahlala sisondelene kakhulu ezikoleni zamabanga aphansi naphakathi futhi saqeda isikole samabanga aphakeme sindawonye. Ngisho noma sasihamba ngezindlela ezahlukahlukene zasekolishi, sahlala sixhumana futhi sathuthela eChicago kungakapheli unyaka omunye nomunye. Eminyakeni edlule, sabelana ngezigemegeme zempilo yethu yokusebenza ndawonye nezindaba zomdlalo weqophelo lomndeni, izinkathazo zabafana, kanye nokulimazeka kwemfashini. UJackie waze wangazisa nomuntu engangisebenza naye, owagcina esengumyeni wami.

Ukubhekana noshintsho

Eminyakeni engamashumi amabili nambili, uJackie waqala ukulingisa futhi wakhombisa isimilo esingajwayelekile. Wangithululela isifuba futhi wahlanganyela imicabango yakhe eyayimkhathaza. Ngamncenga ukuthi athole usizo lochwepheshe, ngaphandle kwempumelelo. Ngazizwa ngingelutho ngokuphelele. Yize ngilahlekelwe ngabazali bami, umshana, ubabekazi, nogogo kungakapheli iminyaka emine, ukubona umngani wami wobuntwana elahlekelwa yi-schizophrenia kwaba yinto esabekayo kunazo zonke empilweni yami.

Ngangazi ukuthi akukho engingakwenza ukugcina abathandekayo bami bephila - babephathwa izifo ezingelapheki - kodwa ngangihlale nginethemba lokuthi ngandlela thile ukwesekwa nothando lwami ngoJackie luzomsiza aphile. Ngemuva kwakho konke, njengezingane, noma nini lapho edinga ukubalekela usizi lwasekhaya lakhe noma aveze inhliziyo ephukile, ngangikhona ngendlebe evulekile, isigaxa se-ayisikhilimu, nehlaya noma okubili.

Kodwa kulokhu kwakuhlukile. Ngalesi sikhathi ngangilahlekile.

Ubunzima, nethemba

Nakhu engikwazi manje ngesifo esiqeda amandla sikaJackie, yize kusekuningi engingakuqondi. INational Institute of Mental Health ichaza i-schizophrenia “njengesifo esiyinkimbinkimbi ngokumangalisayo esiye sahlonishwa ngokwengeziwe njengeqoqo lezifo ezahlukahlukene.” Kungenzeka emadodeni nakwabesifazane bayo yonke iminyaka, kepha abesifazane bavame ukukhombisa izimpawu zokugula sebeneminyaka engama-20 kuya kwengama-30, okuyisikhathi lapho uJackie akhombisa khona izimpawu.

Kunezinhlobo ezahlukahlukene zeschizophrenia, "paranoid" okuyiyona uJackie anayo. I-Schizophrenia ivame ukuqondwa kabi futhi ibandlululwe nakanjani, njengokugula kwengqondo okuningi. Isazi sokusebenza kwengqondo u-Eleanor Longden unikeze i-TEDTalk emangalisayo echaza ukuthi wayithola kanjani i-schizophrenia yakhe, ukuthi abangane bakhe basabela kanjani kabi, nokuthi ekugcineni wawanqoba kanjani amazwi asekhanda lakhe. Indaba yakhe ngeyethemba. Ngiyethemba ukuthi ngifisa sengathi ngikhona kuJackie.

Ukubhekana namaqiniso anzima

Ngemuva kocingo olushaqisayo esejele, uJackie ulahlwe yicala lokushaya wagwetshwa iminyaka eyisikhombisa ohlelweni lwamacala okujeziswa kombuso eCalifornia. Eminyakeni emithathu, uJackie wadluliselwa esikhungweni sempilo yengqondo. Ngalesi sikhathi, sasibhalelana, futhi mina nomyeni wami sanquma ukumvakashela. Ukulangazelela ukubona uJackie kwakukhathaza amathumbu. Bengingazi ukuthi ngingadlula kuyo noma ngibekezelele ukumbona ekuleso simo. Kepha ngangazi ukuthi kufanele ngizame.

Ngenkathi mina nomyeni wami simi kulayini ngaphandle kwesikhungo sempilo yengqondo silinde iminyango ukuvula, ikhanda lami laligcwele izinkumbulo ezijabulisayo. Mina noJackie, sidlala i-hopscotch esitobhini sebhasi, sihamba siye e-junior high ndawonye, ​​siqonde esikoleni esiphakeme ngemoto yakhe eshayiwe. Umqala wami waklinya. Imilenze yami yaqhaqhazela. Icala lokumhluleka, lokungakwazi ukumsiza, langehlula.

Ngabheka ibhokisi le-pizza kanye noshokholethi kaFannie May esandleni sami futhi ngacabanga ukuthi kwakuwubuwula kanjani ukucabanga ukuthi bangakhanyisa usuku lwakhe. Ubhajwe ngaphakathi kule ndawo nangaphakathi kwengqondo yakhe. Ngomzuzwana, ngicabange ukuthi kuzoba lula ukuvele ngifulathele. Kungaba lula ukukhumbula ukugigitheka ndawonye ebhasini lesikole, noma ukumthokozisa ngenkathi esenkantolo yesikole samabanga aphakeme, noma ukuyothenga izingubo ezithandwayo ndawonye esitolo sezitolo saseChicago. Kungaba lula ukumkhumbula ngaphambi kokuba konke lokhu kwenzeke, njengomngani wami ongenankinga, othanda ubumnandi.

Kodwa lokho kwakungeyona indaba yakhe yonke. ISchizophrenia, kanye nejele kanye nakho, manje kwase kuyingxenye yempilo yakhe. Ngakho lapho iminyango ivuleka, ngadonsa umoya, ngageba ngajula, ngangena.

Ngenkathi uJackie engibona nomyeni wami, wasimamatheka kakhulu - ukumamatheka okufanayo okumangalisayo engikukhumbule kusukela eneminyaka engu-5, no-15, kanye no-25. WayesenguJackie noma ngabe kwenzekeni kuye. Wayesengumngane wami omuhle.

Ukuhambela kwethu kudlule ngokushesha okukhulu. Ngambonisa izithombe zendodana nendodakazi yami, ayengakaze azibone. Sahleka ngesikhathi inyoni imchoma ekhanda lapho siya esikoleni, nokuthi sadansa kanjani kwaze kwaba ngu-4 ekuseni emcimbini wosuku lweSt. Patrick lapho sasineminyaka engama-24 ubudala. Wangitshela ukuthi ukhumbula kangakanani ekhaya, wenza izinzipho zakhe, ukusebenza, nokusondelana nabantu besilisa.

Akasakhumbuli lutho ngesigameko esamfaka ejele, kodwa wazisola kakhulu ngalokhu ayekwenzile. Ukhulume ngokusobala ngokugula kwakhe wathi imishanguzo nokwelashwa kuyasiza. Sakhala ngokuthi kungenzeka singaphinde sibonane isikhathi eside. Ngokungazelelwe, kwakungathi ucingo olucijile lwengaphandle lwalusinyamalele futhi sasihlezi emuva eChicago esitolo sekhofi sabelana ngezindaba. Kwakungaphelele, kodwa kwakungokoqobo.

Lapho mina nomyeni wami sihamba, sahamba cishe ihora sithule sibambene ngezandla. Kwakungukuthula okugcwele usizi kodwa futhi nenhlansi yethemba. Ngangisizonda isimo esibuhlungu uJackie ayekuso. Ngangikucasukela ukugula okwakumubeke lapho, kodwa nganquma ukuthi nakuba lokhu kungaba yingxenye yempilo kaJackie manje, ngeke kumchaze.

Kimina, uzohlala eyile ntombazane enhle engangilangazelela ukuyibona esitobhini sebhasi nsuku zonke.

Izinsiza zokusiza abantu abane-schizophrenia

Uma unomngane noma ilungu lomndeni eline-schizophrenia, ungasiza ngokubakhuthaza ukuthi bathole ukwelashwa futhi banamathele kulo. Uma ungazi ukuthi ungamtholaphi uchwepheshe wezempilo yengqondo owelapha i-schizophrenia, cela udokotela wakho wokunakekelwa okuyisisekelo ukuthi akutuse. Ungakwazi futhi ukufinyelela ohlelweni lomshuwalense wezempilo womuntu omthandayo. Uma ukhetha ukuseshwa kwe-Intanethi, i-American Psychological Association inikezela ngosesho oluku-inthanethi ngendawo kanye nobuchwepheshe.

I-National Institute of Mental Health ikukhuthaza ukuthi ukhumbule ukuthi i-schizophrenia yisifo semvelo umuntu othandekayo wakho angakwazi ukuvele asivale. Basikisela ukuthi indlela ewusizo kakhulu yokuphendula othandekayo wakho lapho ethi izitatimende ezingajwayelekile noma ezingamanga ukuqonda ukuthi bayakholelwa ngokweqiniso imicabango nemibono abanayo.