'Umqeqeshi Olahlekile Kakhulu' U-Erica Lugo On Kungani Kudla Ukuphazamiseka Kwemikhuba Yokudla Kuyimpi Yesikhathi Sonke

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U-Erica Lugo angathanda ukubeka umlando oqondile: Wayengekho enkingeni yokuphazamiseka kwakhe ekudleni ngenkathi evela njengomqeqeshi ku Ukulahlekelwa Okukhulu Kakhulu Nokho, umqeqeshi wokuzivocavoca umzimba wayehlangabezana nemicabango eminingi ayeyibona iyinkinga futhi ingaba yingozi.

"Ukubhaka nokuhlanza yilokho engikwenze isikhathi esingaphansi konyaka, eminyakeni engaphezu kwemihlanu edlule," usho kanje. "Into eyodwa abezindaba abayikhiphile emongweni ukuthi bathi ngiphethwe yinkinga yokudla ngenkathi ngikhona ohlelweni - angizange ngibe nenkinga yokudla okusebenzayo ohlelweni, ngihlushwa imicabango yenkinga yokudla bonisa. Kunomehluko omkhulu. Njengomuntu oke waba nenkinga yokudla, kunomgubho ekhanda lakho lapho ushaya unyaka we-purge-free. Ngingakhala ngoba ngigubhe iminyaka emihlanu - ngase ngifunda isihloko esithi ngisenayo . Kucishe kube impama ebusweni kuwo wonke umsebenzi onzima engiwenzile. "

Yize uLugo ezibheka njengokhululekile ekuziphatheni okubhangayo nokuhlanza okuhambisana ne-bulimia, akanayo ingcindezi yomphakathi noma okulindelwe okungenangqondo okubekwe kubaqeqeshi ukuze bavumelane nobuhle benkolelo. Ngakho-ke lapho i-Instagram troll ishiya amazwana kokunye kokuthunyelwe kwakhe emasontweni ambalwa edlule, wazizwa ephoqelekile ukuthi ayikhulume esidlangalaleni. Amazwana okukhulunywa ngawo? "Ubukeka umkhulu futhi awunasabelo. Kumuntu odla ukudla okunempilo futhi osebenza kakhulu umkhulu. Ungase ufune ukungabi umqeqeshi wezempilo." (Okuhlobene: I-One Perfect Move: I-Erica Lugo's Super Plank Series)

ULugo uthi i-barb uqobo lwayo yayingehlukile. Ubelokhu ezulazula ngendlela engamukeleki futhi engenalwazi emzimbeni wakhe kusukela wehla ngaphezu kwamakhilogremu ayi-150, wasinda ekutholeni umdlavuza we-thyroid, futhi waguqula impilo yakhe yaba ngumqeqeshi oqeqeshiwe ophethe ipulatifomu yokuqeqesha online, u-Erica Love Fit - konke lokhu ngenkathi ebhala phansi isipiliyoni sakhe ezinkundleni zokuxhumana. Kepha lapho evuka kulawa mazwana ekuqaleni kwale nyanga, wakubona njengomzuzu ofundisekayo.

"Ngesikhathi othile ebeka umbono wokuthi ngikhulu futhi mhlawumbe angifanele ukuba ngumqeqeshi wezempilo, ngacabanga ukuthi sekuyisikhathi sokukhuluma nendlovu egumbini," usho kanje. "Ngithole amakhilogremu ayi-10 selokhu ngiqopha iminyaka engaphezu kwemibili ngoba ngibuyele ekwelashweni ngenxa yalabo abadla imicabango yokuphazamiseka. Bengidinga ukusebenzela imicabango kanye nezenzo. Umuntu kungenzeka angabi yi-bulimic noma i-anorexic, kepha lokho akusho ukuthi abanayo imicabango noma bafuna ukukhipha ukudla noma ukuvimbela ukudla noma ukuzivocavoca noma babanjwe njengesigqila semicabango yabo yokuphazamiseka kokudla. Abagcini nje ngokuhamba. "

Ngokubheka emuva, uLugo angabona izimpawu ezithile zokuxwayisa ukuthi ingqondo yakhe ibisiqala ukubuyela emuva endaweni ekhubazekile, yize engakaze enze ngokuvumelana nezifiso zokuziphatha kwe-bulimic.

"Uma ulahlekelwa yinoma yiluphi uhlobo lwesisindo, uhlale usaba ukuthi uzobuya futhi uhlale usebenza ukuze ulondoloze isisindo sakho," usho kanje. "Benginengcindezi yami yangaphakathi yokuthi, 'oh shit, manje nakanjani kumele ngikugcine lokhu.' Ngangibala yonke into encane engangiyidla futhi ngisebenza izinsuku eziyisithupha ngesonto futhi ngithola izinyathelo ezingu-X ngosuku. Kwakungeyona nje into evamile, 'oh ngifuna ukunyakaza futhi ngidle kahle,' kwakuwukuthi, 'cha, Erica, wena. ngidinga ukwenza lokhu, 'futhi angisiye lowo ngingubani. Ngingumuntu onjengaye,' manje njengoba wehlile isisindo, qiniseka ukuthi usigcina ngokunyakazisa umzimba wakho nokudla okunempilo, futhi uma unesiqephu pizza, unesiqephu se-pizza futhi uqhubeke.' Kungakho lapho sengiqedile ngohlelo ngafuna usizo futhi ngoba kimina ukuthi, 'kufanele umise ku-X amakhalori noma ushaye inani lika-X lekhalori lishise ewashini lakho,' akujwayelekile kimi lokho, futhi ngangazi ukuthi lokho i-snowball ekuziphatheni okudala uma ngiyidedela. "

Ukholelwa ukuthi ukuzuza kwesisindo esingamakhilogremu ayi-10 ngemuva kokubuyela ekwelashweni ekuqaleni konyaka bekungukubuyiselwa okunempilo. Kube ngumthelela wokubuyela endaweni ezinzile ngemuva kokuqina kakhulu ngokubala ikhalori nokuzivocavoca umzimba.

ULugo waqala ukufuna ukwelashwa cishe eminyakeni eyisithupha eyedlule ngenkathi eqhuqha futhi ehlanza ngenkuthalo. Uthi: “Ngase ngivele ngehlile emzimbeni, futhi ngangisebudlelwaneni obabubuhlukumeza kabi ngokomzwelo,” kusho yena. "Lesi futhi isikhathi lapho i-Instagram isiqalile ukuqala, abantu baqala ukunaka 'abagqugquzeli,' kanye 'nokunyonyoba' kwabathonya kwaba yinto enkulu ngempela. Phakathi kwezingcindezi zalobu budlelwano obuhlukumeza ngokomzwelo - ubuhlobo bokuqala engangizobuthola. ngingene kusukela ngesehlukaniso sami [ngo-2014] - futhi sengidlule kulolu shintsho olukhulu lomzimba, ngaqala ukufunda lawa mazwana amabi aku-inthanethi futhi kwangiphoqa ukuthi ngifune indawo yokuphuma. "

Uqhubeka athi, "Yilapho-ke le nkinga yokudla yaqala cishe eminyakeni eyisithupha eyedlule. Ngayigcina iyimfihlo, yahlala isikhathi esingaphansi konyaka, futhi yaphela ngoba ngangiyesaba ngokweqiniso impilo yami. Inhliziyo yami yaqala ukushaya kancane, futhi kwangethusa kakhulu. (Imijikelezo ye-binge-and-purge ye-bulimia ingaholela ekungalingani kwe-electrolyte nokungalingani kwamakhemikhali okungathinta ukusebenza kwenhliziyo, ngokusho kweNational Eating Disorder Association.)

Yize ukwelashwa kwasiza uLugo ekugcineni agqashule ekuziphatheni kwe-bulimia, ukuxilongwa kwakhe ngumdlavuza kanye nesivunguvungu somsebenzi esalandela kwamenza wangazinakekela ngokuqhubekayo. “Ngatholakala nginomdlavuza ngosuku olulandela i-Thanksgiving ngo-2018, ngahlinzwa ngoJanuwari 2019, ngemisebe ngoMashi 2019, ngase ngiqala ukuqhubekela phambili. Ukulahlekelwa Okukhulu Kakhulu ngo-Agasti 2019, "usho kanjalo." Bengingenaso isikhathi sokuzinakekela nengqondo yami - bekungukusinda nje bese ngisebenzisa i-adrenaline, ngakho-ke ngicabanga ukuthi ngikushaye indiva konke ebengikufunde ekwelashweni isikhathi eside kangangokuba leyo micabango emidala amaphethini aqala ukubuya. Ngiyiyeke isikhathi esingaphezu konyaka [futhi ngicabanga] yilokho okuyenze yabuya ngoba bengingazinakekeli mina nengqondo yami. Lokhu kuzokukhombisa ukuthi kungakhathaliseki ukuthi umlutha noma izinkinga onazo, kuyinto okufanele uyinakekele ngoba ingabuya uma ungakwenzi lokho.”

U-Lugo waqala ukubona ukuthi ingqondo yakhe ibuyela emuva endaweni enenkinga ngenkathi enza ifilimu, kepha ukwazile ukugcina isimilo, ebiza amathuluzi abewakhile kuyo yonke iminyaka yakhe yokutakula. Noma kunjalo, isilingo sokubuyela kulezo zimilo sasinamandla kakhulu.

“Bekungeyona ingcindezi yomuntu kodwa bekungeyami, futhi empeleni wonke umuntu embukisweni, kusuka kubadidiyeli kuya kwinethiwekhi, bekumangalisa futhi kuhlale kungenza ngibe muhle futhi ngibe mkhulu,” usho kanje. "Ngazifaka kuleyo ngcindezi futhi leyo micabango yaqala ukubuya. Ngangiyeka ukwelashwa ngoba ngangizizwa sengathi ngiyakulawula. Kodwa lokho abantu abangakuqondi ukuthi, kungenzeka ukuthi awunankinga yokudla, kepha leyo micabango Ungaze uhambe.Yinto ezokuhlupha impilo yakho yonke.Kucishe kufane nosathane omncane ekhanda lami futhi uma ngibheka ukudla okuthile, udeveli uzothi, 'hawu lokho kuyakhishwa kalula, lokho kuzovela kalula, 'noma' hheyi, yidla lokhu bese uyihlanza kamuva - akekho ozokwazi. ' Futhi lokho - ngithola ama-goosebumps ngisho nokusho manje ngoba angikaze ngikhulume ngokukhululekile ngakho. " (Okuhlobene: Ukuthi iCoronavirus Lockdown Ingakuthinta Kanjani Ukubuyiswa Kwenkinga Yokudla - nokuthi Yini Ongayenza Ngayo)

Uguquko lwangempela olukhuthaze uLugo ukuthi aphinde afune ukwesekwa lwafika ngemva kosuku olunzima kakhulu. Uthi: “Ngangikhathele. “Bekuwusuku lwamahora angu-15, silahlekelwe yinselelo, futhi ngangingakaqali ukuqopha - akekho owayazi ukuthi ngisohlelweni, ngakho-ke kwadingeka ngikugcine kuyimfihlo ukuze ngingabi namuntu engizophumela kuye. Ngidle ucezu lwe-pizza ngoba besinokudla okulula kwasebusuku kusethi, nasendleleni ebheke ekhaya, okungaba imizuzu engama-45, bengilokhu ngicabanga, 'ungaya ekhaya uhlanze futhi akekho ozokwazi.' Futhi ngangihlala endlini yangasese ngamadolo ami efakwe esifubeni ubusuku bonke, ngicabanga nje, 'Erica, usebenze iminyaka emihlanu, kungani ibuya le micabango?' Ngakho-ke lapho ngibuya ekuqopheni nasekuhambeleni kwabezindaba, ngabona ukuthi kufanele ngibuyele ekwelapheni. "

Kwakunokunye ukuguquka okushaqisayo kwemicimbi okwaphoqa ukuthi uLugo abuyele ekwelashweni, futhi. "Enye yezintombi zomyeni wami empeleni yadlula emhlabeni ngenxa yokuphazamiseka kwemikhuba yokudla ngonyaka owedlule," esho. "Washona eneminyaka engu-38 ubudala. Akulungile ukukwenza lokho. Ngesikhathi ngikhulula iminyaka emihlanu futhi eshona ngonyaka odlule, kwaba inselelo enkulu kimi ukuba ngiqhubeke nokululama. nohambo lwami nokwabelana ngalo nabantu."

Lapho ubhubhane luhlasela, uLugo wasebenzisa ikhefu elaligunyaziwe endleleni yakhe yobungcweti ukuze aphinde azinikele ekwelapheni kwakhe siqu. "Benginesikhathi sonke sokunikela ekwelashweni nge-inthanethi," esho. "Ngakho-ke njengoba i-lockdown ilapho ngempela ngibuyela ekwelapheni ngoba lokhu akupheli. Ukuthi unawo wonke amathuluzi akusho ukuthi, 'kulungile akusekho.'

U-Lugo uthi onyakeni nohhafu odlule, ukwazile ukuphinde athole unyawo lwakhe mayelana nokulwa nemicabango yokuphazamiseka kwemikhuba yokudla. “Ngisendaweni ejabulisa kakhulu futhi enempilo futhi angisesona isiboshwa sokukhetha ukudla noma ukuzivivinya ngaso sonke isikhathi ngoba ngiyayiyeka leyo ngcindezi,” usho kanje. "Bengicabanga ukuthi sekuyisikhathi sokuvuleleka futhi ngifuna ukuletha ukuqwashisa okwengeziwe nokukhanya kulokhu ngoba ngiyazi uma ngihlupheke ngithule, angikwazi ukucabanga ukuthi bangaki abanye abantu abahlupheka buthule." (Okuhlobene: Uhambo luka-Erica Lugo Lwe-Weight Loss Lwenza Ube Ngomunye Wabaqeqeshi Abalandelwa Kakhulu)

Naphezu kokuvela kabusha kwemicabango ephazamisekile ngesikhathi sokuqopha, uLugo uthi uyayazisa inkundla Ukulahlekelwa Okukhulu Kakhulu wamnika. “Ngajabula kakhulu ukungena kulolu hlelo ngoba okokuqala ngqa, kwakukhona umqeqeshi owayengenayo i-six-pack abs futhi owayenesikhumba esixegayo futhi engeyena u-0 noma 2,” usho kanje. "Kwaphambana nokwejwayelekile, futhi ngakujabulela lokho. Uma sibheka ezinkundleni zokuxhumana, sizwa njalo, 'i-reel evelele futhi awuboni ngemuva,' futhi abantu baqala ukuqaphela ukuthi ngikhulule isisindo selokhu ngangiku-TV, kepha lokho abangaqapheli ukuthi ngingumuntu ojabule kunabo bonke futhi onempilo engake ngaba khona, futhi abaqapheli ukuthi kunezimpi eziningi ezahlukahlukene abantu abazenzayo nokuzigcina ngokwabo. "

Kwabanye okungenzeka ukuthi banenkinga yokuphazamiseka kwemikhuba yokudla noma noma yiluphi uhlobo lwemicabango eyinkinga nokuziphatha ngokudla, ukuvivinya umzimba, isisindo, noma isithombe somzimba, uLugo uncoma ukufuna izinsiza, njenge-NEDA. “Omunye wemisho engiwuthanda kakhulu uthi, ‘ukugula kuchuma ngokuyimfihlo,’ futhi uma ugcina imfihlo kuwe isikhathi eside futhi wenqaba ukufuna usizo, kuzoba nzima nakakhulu ukuba ujabule, ube nempilo engcono,” usho kanje. "Futhi 'ukuphila kahle' akusho usayizi webhulukwe; kusho ukuthi uphila kanjani? Uzithanda kanjani ngenkuthalo? Noma ingabe ugula ngasese? Ungafuna usizo futhi wonke umuntu uyazabalaza ngezinga elithile, kungakhathaliseki ukuthi lokho kusho ukukhawulela ama-calories noma ukuzilolonga nsuku zonke noma uma kuyi-anorexia noma i-bulimia. Kubaluleke kakhulu, ikakhulukazi ngenkundla enginayo, ukuphumela obala nokwethembeka ngalokho."

Uma unenkinga yokuphazamiseka kwemikhuba yokudla, ungashayela inombolo yosizo ye-National Eating Disorders Helpline kokuthi (800)-931-2237, uxoxe nothile ku-myneda.org/helpline-chat, noma uthumele i-SMS ethi NEDA ku-741-741 ukuze uthole 24/7 ukwesekwa kwesimo esibucayi.

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