U-Gabourey Sidibe Uvula Ngempi Yakhe No-Bulimia kanye Nokucindezeleka Ku-New Memoir

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UGabourey Sidibe usephenduke izwi elinamandla eHollywood uma kukhulunywa ngokulungela komzimba-futhi uvame ukuvula ukuthi ubuhle bunjani ngokuzibona. Ngenkathi manje esaziwa ngokuzethemba kwakhe okuthelelanayo nangesimo sakhe sokungapheli amandla (isibonelo: impendulo yakhe emangalisayo kusikhangiso sakhe seLane Bryant), umlingisi oneminyaka engu-34 ukhombisa uhlangothi lwakhe olungakaze lubonwe ngaphambili enkumbulweni yakhe entsha, Lobu Ubuso Bami Nje: Zama Ukungagqolozeli.

Ngaphandle kokuveza ukuthi wahlinzwa isisindo somzimba, owaphakanyiswa u-Oscar wavula obala ngomzabalazo wakhe wezempilo yengqondo nenkinga yokudla.

"Nansi into ephathelene nokwelashwa nokuthi kungani kubaluleke kangaka," ubhala kumemo yakhe. "Ngiyamthanda umama wami, kodwa kuningi ebengingakwazi ukukhuluma naye ngakho. Bengingamtsheli ukuthi angikwazi ukuyeka ukukhala nokuthi ngiyakuzonda konke ngami." (Hlola Abantu ngengcaphuno evela encwadini yomsindo.)

"Ngesikhathi ngiqala ukumtshela ukuthi ngidangele, wangihleka. Empeleni. Hhayi ngoba engumuntu okhohlakele, kodwa ngoba wayecabanga ukuthi kwakuyihlaya," eqhubeka. "Kungenzeka kanjani ukuthi ngikwazi ukuzizwa ngingcono ngedwa, njengaye, njengabangane bakhe, njengabantu abajwayelekile? Ngakho-ke bengilokhu ngicabanga imicabango yami ebuhlungu-imicabango ngokufa."

USidibe uqhubeka avume ukuthi impilo yakhe yashintsha kakhulu ngesikhathi eqala amakolishi. Kanye nokuhlaselwa uvalo, wayeka ukudla, ngezinye izikhathi engadli izinsuku eziningi.

“Ezikhathini eziningi uma ngidabukile ngingasakhali, ngiphuze ingilazi yamanzi ngidle ucezu lwesinkwa, bese ngiluphonsa phezulu,” kubhala yena. "Ngemuva kokuthi ngenzile, angibange ngisadabukisa; ngagcina sengikhululekile. Ngakho angikaze ngidle lutho, ngaze ngafuna ukuphonsa phezulu-futhi kuphela lapho ngikwenza lapho ngingakwazi ukuphazamisa kunoma imuphi umcabango owawuzungeza ikhanda lami."

Kwaze kwadlula isikhathi lapho uSidibe egcine ephendukela kuchwepheshe wezempilo owathola ukuthi unesifo sokucindezeleka ne-bulimia ngemva kokuvuma ukuthi unemicabango yokuzibulala, uyachaza.

"Ngithole udokotela ngamtshela konke obekungiphatha kabi. Angikaze ngilibale lonke uhlu phambilini, kodwa njengoba ngangizizwa, ngangibona ukuthi ukubhekana nalokhu ngingedwa kwakungeyona inketho," Uyabhala. "Udokotela ungibuze ukuthi ngifuna ukuzibulala yini. Ngathi," Meh, hhayi okwamanje. Kodwa uma sengizibulala, ngiyazi ukuthi ngizokwenza kanjani. "

"Bengingesabi ukufa, futhi ukube bekunenkinobho ebengingayicindezela ukusula ubukhona bami emhlabeni, bengizoyicindezela ngoba bekuzoba lula futhi kungabi nokudideka kunokuzicasula. Ngokusho kukadokotela, bekwanele."

Kusukela lapho, uSidibe wenze umzamo omkhulu ekulawuleni impilo yakhe yengqondo ngokuya ekwelapheni njalo kanye nokuthatha imishanguzo yokudambisa ukucindezeleka, uhlanganyela embhalweni.

Ukuvula ngezingqinamba zomuntu siqu njengempilo yengqondo akukaze kube lula. Ngakho-ke uSidibe ufanelwe ukumenyezelwa kakhulu ngokudlala indima yakhe ekususeni isigcwagcwa esihambisana nodaba (okuyimbangela yokuthi abanye osaziwayo abafana noKristen Bell noDemi Lovato nabo bakhulume ngakho muva nje.) Nakhu ukuthemba ukuthi indaba yakhe izoba nethonya kwabanye abantu. abanezinkinga zempilo yengqondo futhi babazise ukuthi ababodwa.

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