Ngikugcina Kanjani Ukuzethemba Kwami Ngenkathi Ngigula Okungabonakali

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• I-bipolar nami
• Uthando ludinga isikhathi ukuze lukhule
• Awusikho ukugula kwakho

Ngiyazi ukuthi ucabangani: Lokhu kungenzeka kanjani ngempela?

Ukudangala kungaba ngesinye sezifo ezonakalisa ukuzethemba kakhulu. Yisifo esenza izinto ozithandayo nezinto ozithandayo zibe phansi, ukugula okwenza abangani bakho babe izitha zakho, ukugula okususa ukukhanya kwakho kukushiye nobumnyama kuphela. Futhi nokho, ngakho konke lokho okushiwo, wena can khipha ukuzethemba noma ngabe uhlala nokucindezeleka.

Ngaphambi kokuba ngiqhubekele phambili, kufanele wazi ukuthi lena akuyona indatshana yokuzisiza. Lokhu akuyona i-athikili ethi "Ngingashintsha impilo yakho ezinsukwini eziyi-10". Esikhundleni salokho, lena "unamandla, unesibindi, futhi uyamangalisa kakhulu kunendlela ocabanga ngayo, ngakho-ke zinike udumo". Lokhu ngikusho ngoba nakhu engikufunde ngami.

I-bipolar nami

Ngiphila ne-bipolar disorder. Kuyisifo sengqondo esinezikhathi zokwehla okukhulu nokuphakama okukhulu. Ngathola ukuxilongwa ngo-2011, futhi ngifunde izindlela eziningi zokubhekana nesimo eminyakeni edlule ukuthi ngingabhekana kanjani nesimo sami.

Anginamahloni nakancane ngokugula kwami. Ngaqala ukuhlupheka lapho ngineminyaka engu-14. Ngaqala ukuba ne-bulimia futhi ngaqala ukuzilimaza ukubhekana nemicabango eyayenzeka ekhanda lami. Akekho owayazi ukuthi kwenzakalani ngami ngoba, emuva lapho, kwakumane kungakhulunywa esidlangalaleni. Kwakukhishwa inyumbazana ngokuphelele, kungavunyelwe ngokuphelele.

Namuhla, ngisebenzisa i-akhawunti ye-Instagram ukugqamisa ukugula kwengqondo nokuqwashisa ngezimo ezihlukile - hhayi eyami kuphela. Yize bengikudinga ukuphumula ngezikhathi ezithile ezinkundleni zokuxhumana, kungisizile impela ukuthola amandla ngezikhathi zobuthakathaka ngokuxhumana nabanye. Kodwa ukube wawungitshele onyakeni owedlule ukuthi ngizoba nokuzethemba kokungagcini ngokuthanda umzimba wami kuphela kodwa futhi nezimfihlo zami ezijulile, ezimnyama kakhulu, bengizokuhleka ebusweni bakho. Mina? Ukuzethemba nokujabula ngami? Akunakwenzeka.

Uthando ludinga isikhathi ukuze lukhule

Kodwa-ke, ngokuhamba kwesikhathi, sengizethemba ngokwengeziwe. Yebo, ngisabhekana nokuzethemba okuphansi nemicabango emibi - ayisoze yaphela. Kuthatha isikhathi nokuqonda, kepha ngifunde ukuthi ngingazithanda kanjani.

Lokhu bekungeke kube kude neqiniso. Iqiniso lokuthi awuguli nje kuphela ekuguleni kwengqondo, kodwa futhi kumele ubhekane nokucwaswa komphakathi, kusho ukuthi unamandla amakhulu kunalokho okucabangayo. Ngikuqonda ngokuphelele ukuthi ukuzethemba nokugula kwengqondo akuhambisani. Ngeke uvuke njalo ekuseni uzizwa ungaphezulu komhlaba, ulungele ukunqoba yonke imigomo oyibekayo.

Engikufundile ukuzivumela isikhathi. Vumela ukuthi uzwe imizwa yakho. Zinike isikweletu. Zinike ikhefu. Zinikeze inzuzo yokungabaza. Futhi ngaphezu kwakho konke, zinike uthando olukufanele.

Awusikho ukugula kwakho

Kulula ukubeka abanye kuqala, ikakhulukazi uma ungazethembi. Kodwa mhlawumbe sekuyisikhathi sokuzibheka njengokuhamba phambili. Mhlawumbe sekuyisikhathi sokuthi uyeke ukugxeka wena, bese empeleni uzinika ukuncoma. Usekela futhi uphakamise abangane bakho - kungani ungazisoli wena, futhi?

Imicabango engemihle ekhanda lakho ingazwakala njengeyakho, kodwa akunjalo. Yikukugula kwakho ukuziqinisekisa ngezinto ongeyona. Awunalutho, umthwalo, ukwehluleka. Uvuka njalo ekuseni. Ungahle ungashiyi umbhede wakho, kungenzeka ungayi emsebenzini izinsuku ezithile, kodwa uyaphila futhi uyaphila. Uyakwenza!

Ihlombe lakho lonke!

Khumbula, hhayi zonke izinsuku eziyoba zinhle. Akuzona zonke izinsuku ezizokulethela izindaba ezimangazayo kanye nokuhlangenwe nakho okuhle.

Bhekana ngqo nezwe. Bheka impilo ebusweni bese uthi, "Nginakho lokhu."

Uyamangalisa. Ungakukhohlwa lokho.

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