Indlela Ukusinda Ohlotsheni Olungavamile Lomdlavuza Kwangenza Ngaba Umgijimi Ongcono
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Ngo-June 7, 2012, amahora ambalwa ngaphambi kokuba nginqamule esiteji futhi ngithole idiploma yami yesikole samabanga aphezulu, udokotela wamathambo wanikeza lezi zindaba: Angizange nje nginethumba elinomdlavuza elingavamile emlenzeni wami, futhi ngangizodinga ukuhlinzwa ukuze ngikhishwe. kodwa mina-umsubathi oshisekayo owayesanda kuqeda i-half marathon yami yakamuva ngamahora amabili nemizuzu eyi-11-wayengeke akwazi ukugijima futhi.
Ukulunywa Kwesiphazamiso Okubi
Cishe ezinyangeni ezimbili nohhafu ngaphambili, ngathola ukulunywa yisinambuzane emlenzeni ongezansi kwesokudla. Indawo engaphansi kwayo ibonakale ivuvukele, kepha ngivele ngacabanga ukuthi iyisenzo sokulunywa. Amasonto adlula futhi ekugijimeni okujwayelekile kwamamayela angu-4, ngabona ukuthi iqhubu selikhule kakhulu. Umqeqeshi wami wezokusubatha esikoleni esiphakeme wangithumela esikhungweni sendawo samathambo, lapho ngenza khona i-MRI ukuze ngibone ukuthi iqhubu elilingana nebhola lethenisi lingaba yini.
Ezinsukwini ezimbalwa ezalandela bekuyinqwaba yezingcingo eziphuthumayo namagama asabekayo afana nokuthi "oncologist," "i-tumor biopsy," kanye "nokuskena ukuminyana kwamathambo." Ngo-May 24, 2012, emasontweni amabili ngaphambi kokuthweswa iziqu, ngatholwa ngokusemthethweni nginesifo i-4 alveolar rhabdomyosarcoma, uhlobo olungavamile lomdlavuza wezicubu ezithambile owawuzisonge uzungeze amathambo nezinzwa zomlenze wami wangakwesokudla. Futhi yebo, isigaba 4 sinesibikezelo esibi kunazo zonke. Nganikezwa ithuba lokuphila elingamaphesenti angama-30, kungakhathalekile ukuthi ngangilandela inqubo elandelwayo yokuhlinzwa, ukwelashwa ngamakhemikhali nokwelashwa ngemisebe.
Kodwa-ke, njengenhlanhla, umama wasebenza nowesifazane umfowabo oyisazi se-oncologist ogxile kwi-sarcoma (noma umdlavuza wezicubu ezithambile) e-MD Anderson Cancer Centre e-Houston. Ubesedolobheni ngomshado futhi wavuma ukuhlangana ukuze asinikeze umbono wesibili. Ngakusasa, mina nomndeni wami sachitha cishe amahora amane sikhuluma noDkt. Chad Pecot endaweni ye-Starbucks-itafula lethu eligcwele inqwaba yamarekhodi ezokwelapha, izikena, ikhofi elimnyama, nama-lattes. Ngemva kokucabanga okuningi, wacabanga ukuthi amathuba ami okushaya lesi simila ayefana ngisho noma ngeqa ukuhlinzwa, wengeza ngokuthi i-punch eyodwa-2 ye-chemo enamandla nemisebe ingasebenza ngokufanayo. Ngakho sanquma ukuthatha lowo mzila.
Ihlobo Elinzima Kunazo Zonke
Ngayo leyo nyanga, njengoba bonke abangane bami babeqala ihlobo lokugcina besekhaya ngaphambi kwekolishi, ngaqala elokuqala emasontweni angu-54 okujezisa okwelashwa ngamakhemikhali.
Cishe ngobusuku obubodwa, ngasuka kumsubathi odla ukudla okuhlanzekile owayegijima amakhilomitha angu-12 njalo ngezimpelasonto futhi ngihalela ukudla kwasekuseni okukhulu esigulini esikhathele esasikwazi ukuhamba izinsuku singakuthandi ukudla. Ngenxa yokuthi umdlavuza wami wahlukaniswa isigaba 4, izidakamizwa zami zazingezinye ezinzima kakhulu ongazithola. Odokotela bami babengilungiselele ukuthi "ngisuswe ezinyaweni zami" ngenxa yokucanuzela kwenhliziyo, ukuhlanza, nokuncipha kwesisindo somzimba. Ngokuyisimangaliso, angikaze ngiphose nakanye, futhi ngehlise kuphela amakhilogremu ayi-15, okungcono kakhulu kunalokho obekulindelekile. Mina, nami, sakubhalisela lokhu ukuthi ngangisesimweni esihle ngaphambi kokuxilongwa. Amandla engiwakhile kusuka kwezemidlalo nokudla okunempilo kusebenze njengohlobo lwesihlangu sokuzivikela kweminye yemithi enamandla kakhulu nxazonke. (Okuhlobene: Ukuhlala Ngimatasa Kwangisiza Nganqoba Umdlavuza We-pancrea)
Isikhathi esingaphezudlwana konyaka, ngachitha ubusuku obufinyelela kwabahlanu ngesonto esibhedlela sezingane sendawo esinobuthi njalo ngijovwa kimi ngomzamo wokubulala amangqamuzana omdlavuza. Ubaba wayechitha ubusuku bonke nami-futhi waba umngane wami omkhulu kule nqubo.
Kukho konke lokhu, ngiphuthelwe ukuzivocavoca kabi, kepha umzimba wami ubungeke ukwenze. Cishe izinyanga eziyisithupha ngilashwa, ngazama ukuphuma ngiphumele ngaphandle. Umgomo wami: Imayela elilodwa. Ngakhishwa kusukela ekuqaleni, ngiphelelwa umoya futhi angikwazi ukuqeda ngaphansi kwemizuzu engu-15. Kepha noma izwakala sengathi izongicika, ibisebenza njengesisusa sengqondo. Ngemva kokuchitha isikhathi esiningi ngilele embhedeni, ngijovwa ngemithi futhi ngiqunga isibindi sokuqhubeka, ngagcina ngizwa sengathi kukhona engikwenzela khona. mina-futhi hhayi nje emzamweni wokunqoba umdlavuza. Kungikhuthazile ukuthi ngiqhubeke ngibheke phambili futhi ngishaye umdlavuza ngokuhamba kwesikhathi. (Okuhlobene: Izizathu Ezi-11 Ezisekelwa Isayensi Ukugijima Kukulungele Ngempela)
Impilo Ngemuva Komdlavuza
NgoDisemba 2017, ngigubhe iminyaka emine nengxenye ngingenomdlavuza. Ngisanda kuqeda iziqu zokumaketha eFlorida State University futhi nginomsebenzi omuhle ngokusebenzisana neTom Coughlin Jay Fund Foundation, esiza imindeni enezingane ezilwa nomdlavuza.
Uma ngingasebenzi, ngiyagijima. Yebo, kunjalo. Ngibuyele esihlalweni futhi, ngiyaziqhenya ukusho, ngokushesha kunangaphambili. Ngiqale emuva kancane, ngibhalisela umjaho wami wokuqala, i-5K, cishe unyaka nezinyanga ezintathu ngemuva kokuqeda i-chemo. Yize ngangikugwema ukuhlinzwa, enye indlela yokwelashwa kwami yayihlanganisa amasonto ayisithupha emisebe eyayiqondiswe ngqo emlenzeni wami, engangixwayiswa yi-oncologist nodokotela wami ngemisebe ye-radiologist ukuthi izokwenza ithambo libe buthakathaka, kungishiye ngijwayele ukucindezelwa izingcindezi. "Ungethuki uma ungakwazi ukweqa amakhilomitha ama-5 ngaphandle kokulimala kakhulu," kusho bona.
Kodwa ngo-2015, ngase ngisebenze indlela yami yokubuyela emuva emabangeni amade, ngiqhudelana ku-half marathon ngoSuku Lokubonga futhi ngihlula isikhathi sami sokugcina se-half-marathon yangaphambi komdlavuza ngemizuzu engu-18. Lokho kwanginika ukuzethemba kokuzama ukuziqeqeshela umjaho ogcwele wemarathon. Futhi ngoMeyi 2016, ngase ngiqede ama-marathon amabili futhi ngifanelekele i-Boston Marathon ka-2017, engiyigijime ngo-3:28.31. (Okuhlobene: Lo Muntu Owasinda Emdlavuza Ugijime iHalf Marathon Egqoke NjengoCinderella Ngesizathu Esinikeza Amandla)
Angisoze ngikhohlwa ukutshela i-rockstar oncologist yami, u-Eric S. Sandler, MD, ukuthi ngizozama iBoston. "Uyadlala?!" uthe. "Angithi ngakutshela kanye ukuthi ngeke uphinde ukwazi ukugijima?" Wenzile, ngikuqinisekisile, kepha bengingalaleli. "Kuhle, ngiyajabula ukuthi awuzange," esho. "Yingakho usuphenduke lo muntu onguye namuhla."
Ngihlala ngithi umdlavuza ubuyinto embi kunazo zonke engake ngadlula kuzo, kepha futhi kube ngcono kakhulu. Yashintsha indlela engangicabanga ngayo ngokuphila. Kwasondeza mina nomndeni wami. Kungenze ngaba umgijimi ongcono. Yebo, ngineqhubu lezicubu ezifile emlenzeni wami, kodwa ngaphandle kwalokho, nginamandla kunangaphambili. Noma ngigijima nobaba, ngidlala igalofu nesoka lami, noma sengizomba indishi esmoothie ebhunyelwe ama-plantain chips, ama-coconut macaroons acolekile, ibhotela le-almond, nesinamoni, ngihlala ngimamatheka, ngoba ngikhona, Ngiphilile futhi, sengineminyaka engama-23, sengikulungele ukuthatha umhlaba.