Ngatholakala Nginesifo Sokuthuthumela Ngingazi Nanokuthi Ngiyaquleka

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• Ukulwa Nempilo Yami
• Ukubona Kunenkinga
• Ukufunda Ukuthi Ngangiquleka
• Ukuxilongwa Nge-Epilepsy
• Ngabhekana Kanjani Nokuxilongwa
• Engikufundile
• Buyekeza kwe-

Ngo-Okthoba 29, 2019, kwatholakala ukuthi nginesifo sokuwa. Ngahlala ngaphesheya kwesazi sami sezinzwa eBrigham naseWomen Hospital eBoston, amehlo ami eqaqamba nenhliziyo ibuhlungu, njengoba engitshela ukuthi nginesifo esingelapheki engangizophila naso impilo yami yonke.

Ngashiya ihhovisi lakhe ngiphethe umbhalo kadokotela, izincwajana ezimbalwa zamaqembu asekelayo, nemibuzo eyisigidi: "Impilo yami izoshintsha kangakanani?" "Abantu bazocabangani?" "Ngabe ngizozizwa ngivamile futhi?" - uhlu luyaqhubeka.

Ngiyazi ukuthi abantu abaningi okutholakala ukuthi banesifo esingamahlalakhona abakulungele, kodwa mhlawumbe okwangishaqisa kakhulu ukuthi ngangingazi nokuthi nginesifo sokuwa kuze kube yizinyanga ezimbili ngaphambili.

Ukulwa Nempilo Yami

Abaningi abaneminyaka engu-26 bazizwa bengenakunqotshwa. Ngiyazi ngikwenzile. Emqondweni wami, ngangiyisibonelo sokuphila okunempilo: Ngangisebenza izikhathi ezine kuya kweziyisithupha ngesonto, ngangidla ukudla okulinganiselayo, ngangizinakekela futhi ngigcina impilo yami yengqondo ihlola ngokuhlala ngiyokwelashwa.

Kwathi ngoMashi 2019, konke kwashintsha.

Kwaphela izinyanga ezimbili ngigula — okokuqala ngiphethwe yindlebe bese kuba yimikhuhlane emibili (yebo, emibili). Ngenxa yokuthi lokhu kwakungeyona imikhuhlane yami yokuqala ngibheke phansi (#tbt kumkhuhlane wezingulube ngo '09), ngangazi — noma okungenani umcabango Ngangazi-ukuthi yini okumele ngiyilindele lapho ngilulama Kodwa-ke, ngisho nangemva kokuba imfiva nokugodola ekugcineni kuphelile, impilo yami ayibonakalanga inciphe. Esikhundleni sokubuyisa amandla ami njengoba kwakulindelwe, ngangihlala ngikhathele futhi ngaba nokuzwa okungajwayelekile emilenzeni yami. Ukuhlolwa kwegazi kwembula ukuthi nganginokuntuleka okukhulu kwe-B-12—okungatholakali isikhathi eside kangangokuthi kwathinta kakhulu amazinga ami amandla futhi kwaze kwalimaza imizwa yemilenze yami. Ngenkathi ukushoda kwe-B-12 kuvame, inqwaba yegazi ayikwazanga ukusiza amadokhumenti athole ukuthi kungani ngangintula kwasekuqaleni. (Okuhlobene: Kungani Amavithamini B Ayimfihlo Yemandla Amakhulu)

Ngokujabulisayo, isisombululo besilula: amashothi amasonto onke e-B-12 ukuze akhuphule amazinga ami. Ngemva kwemithamo embalwa, ukwelashwa kwabonakala kusebenza futhi, ezinyangeni ezimbalwa kamuva, kwaba yimpumelelo. Ekupheleni kukaMeyi, ngase ngicabanga ngokucacile futhi, ngizizwa nginamandla, futhi ngiba nokugedla okuncane kakhulu emilenzeni yami. Ngenkathi ukulimala kwemizwa kungalungiseki, izinto beziqala ukubukeka futhi, amasonto ambalwa, impilo yabuyela kokujwayelekile-okusho ukuthi, kwaze kwaba ngolunye usuku ngenkathi kubhalwa udaba, umhlaba waba mnyama.

Kwenzeke ngokushesha okukhulu. Ngomunye umzuzu ngangibuka amagama egcwalisa isikrini sekhompuyutha phambi kwami ​​njengoba ngenzile izikhathi eziningi ngaphambili, futhi ngokulandelayo, ngezwa imizwa enamandla ikhuphuka emgodini wesisu sami. Kwakungathi othile unginikeze izindaba ezimbi kakhulu emhlabeni — ngakho-ke ngokungazi ngayeka ukushaya ikhibhodi. Amehlo ami agcwala amehlo, futhi ngase ngiqiniseka ukuthi ngizoqala ukubhuqa. Kodwa-ke, ngaqala ukubona emhubheni futhi ekugcineni ngangakwazi ukubona konke, nakuba amehlo ami ayevulekile.  

Lapho ekugcineni ngifika — kungaba yimizuzwana noma imizuzu kamuva, namanje angazi — ngangizihlalele etafuleni lami futhi ngaqala ukukhala ngokushesha. Kungani? Hhayi. a. umkhondo. Bengingazi ukuthi i-WTF isanda kwenzeka, kepha ngazitshela ukuthi mhlawumbe bekungumphumela wakho konke umzimba wami obekade udlula kuwo ezinyangeni ezimbalwa ezedlule. Ngakho-ke, ngithathe isikhashana ngiziqoqele, ngakukokotela ngoshayela, futhi ngaqhubeka nokuthayipha. (Related: Kungani Ngikhalela Ngaphandle Kwesizathu? Izinto Ezi-5 Ezingabangela Iziphonso Zokukhala)

Kodwa kwaphinda kwenzeka ngakusasa—futhi ngakusasa nangosuku olulandelayo, futhi, ngokushesha, lezi “ziqephu” njengoba ngangizibiza kanjalo, zashuba. Lapho ngiphela amandla, ngangizwa umculo owawungadlali i-IRL empeleni bese ngibona izibalo zezithunzi zikhuluma zodwa, kodwa ngangingakwazi ukuthola ukuthi bathini. Kuzwakala njengephupho elibi, ngiyazi. Kodwa akuzwakali njengenye. Uma kukhona, empeleni ngangizizwa ngijabule noma nini lapho ngiya kulesi simo esifana nephupho. Ngokuzimisela — ngazizwa ngakho ngijabulile ukuthi, ngisho nasekudukeni, ngacabanga ukuthi ngiyamomotheka. Ngokuphazima kweso engaphuma kukho, nokho, ngezwa ukudabuka nokwesaba okujulile, okwakuvame ukulandelwa isicanucanu esidlulele.

Njalo lapho kwenzeka, ngangingedwa. Konke okuhlangenwe nakho bekuyinqaba futhi kuyinqaba kangangokuthi ngangabaza ukutshela noma ubani ngakho. Eqinisweni, ngazizwa sengathi ngiyahlanya.

Ukubona Kunenkinga

Woza uJulayi, ngaqala ukukhohlwa izinto. Uma mina nomyeni wami besiba nengxoxo ekuseni, bengingayikhumbuli ingxoxo yethu ebusuku. Abangane namalungu omndeni baveze ukuthi ngangilokhu ngiziphindaphinda, ngiveza izihloko nezimo esesivele sikhulume ngazo ubude emizuzwini noma amahora ambalwa ngaphambili. Ukuphela kwencazelo engenzeka yazo zonke izingqinamba zami ezintsha zememori? “Iziqephu” eziqhubekayo—okuyinto, naphezu kokuba zenzeka njalo, zaziseyimpicabadala kimi. Angikwazanga ukuthola ukuthi yini ebalethe noma ngasungula uhlobo oluthile lwephethini. Ngalesi sikhathi, zazenzeka ngaso sonke isikhathi sosuku, nsuku zonke, kungakhathalekile ukuthi ngangikuphi noma ngenzani.

Ngakho-ke, cishe inyanga ngemuva kokucishwa kwami ​​okokuqala, ekugcineni ngatshela umyeni wami. Kodwa kwaze kwaba yilapho esezibonele yena uqobo lapho yena—nami—sabuqonda ngempela ubucayi besimo. Nansi incazelo yomyeni wami ngalesi sigameko, njengoba namanje angikakhumbuli ngesigameko: Senzeka ngimi ngakusinki wethu wasendlini yokugezela. Ngemva kokungibiza izikhathi ezimbalwa engaphenduli, umyeni wami waqonda endlini yokugezela eyobheka, wangithola, amahlombe egeqekile, egqolozele phansi, eshaya izindebe zami ndawonye njengoba ngiconsa. Weza ngemuva kwami ​​wangibamba emahlombe ezama ukunginyakazisa. Kepha ngivele ngabuyela ezandleni zakhe, ngingasabeli ngokuphelele, amehlo ami manje acwayiza ngokungalawuleki futhi.

Kwadlula imizuzu ngaphambi kokuba ngiphaphame. Kepha kimi, isikhathi esidlulile sasizizwa sifiphele.

Ukufunda Ukuthi Ngangiquleka

Ngo-Agasti (cishe amasonto amabili kamuva), ngaya kobona udokotela wami oyinhloko wokunakekelwa. Ngemuva kokumtshela ngezimpawu zami, wavele wangidlulisela kudokotela wezinzwa, ngoba wayecabanga ukuthi lezi "ziqephu" kungenzeka ukuthi ziqulekile.

"Ukuquleka? Hhayi-ke," ngaphendula ngaso leso sikhathi. Ukuquleka kwenzeka lapho uwe phansi bese udlikizela ngenkathi uphuma amagwebu emlonyeni. Ngangingakaze ngiyizwe into enjalo empilweni yami! Lezi zicishamlilo ezifana nephupho kwadingeka ukuba ngenye into. (Isexwayiso se-Spoiler: bebengekho, kodwa angizange ngithole ukuxilongwa okuqinisekisiwe kwezinye izinyanga ezimbili ngemuva kokuthi ekugcineni ngithole isikhathi sokuhlangana nodokotela wezinzwa.)

Phakathi naleso sikhathi, udokotela wami walungisa ukuqonda kwami, echaza ukuthi engangisanda kukuchaza kuyisifo sokuwa kwe-tonic-clonic noma i-grand-mal-mal. Ngenkathi isimo sokuwa-ke-sokudlikizela yikho okufika emqondweni kubantu abaningi lapho becabanga ngokuquleka, empeleni kuluhlobo olulodwa lokuquleka.

Ngokwencazelo, ukuquleka kungukuphazamiseka kukagesi okungalawuleki ebuchosheni, echaza. Izinhlobo zokuquleka (eziningi zazo) zihlukaniswa izigaba ezimbili ezinkulu: Ukuquleka okujwayelekile, okuqala kuzo zombili izinhlangothi zobuchopho, kanye nokuquleka okugxile, okuqala endaweni ethile yobuchopho. Bese kuthi kube nezinhlayiya eziningana zokubanjwa — ngakunye okuhlukile kunokunye — esigabeni ngasinye. Uyakhumbula lokho kuthunjwa kwe-tonic-clonic engisanda kukhuluma ngakho? Yebo, labo bawela ngaphansi kwesambulela “sokuquleka okujwayelekile” futhi bavame ukudala ukulahleka ngokwengxenye noma okuphelele, ngokusho kwe-Epilepsy Foundation. Ngesikhathi sokunye ukuhlaselwa, noma kunjalo, ungahlala uphapheme futhi wazi. Eminye ibangela ukunyakaza okubuhlungu, okuphindaphindayo, kokudlikiza, kanti eminye ifaka imizwa engajwayelekile engathinta izinzwa zakho, kungaba ukuzwa, ukubona, ukunambitha, ukuthinta noma ukuhogela. Futhi akuwona neze umdlalo walokhu noma lokho — impela, abanye abantu bahlangabezana nokuthwebula okuncane kuphela, kepha abanye abantu bangaba nokuquleka okuhlukahlukene okuvela ngezindlela ezahlukahlukene, ngokusho kweCenters for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC) .

Ngokususelwa kulokho engihlanganyele ngakho mayelana nezimpawu zami, i-GP yami ithe kungenzeka ngibe nokuhlaselwa okuthile okugxile, kepha ukuthi kuzofanele senze izivivinyo ezithile futhi sithintane nodokotela wezinzwa ukuze siqiniseke. Wangihlelela i-electroencephalogram (EEG), edonsa imisebenzi kagesi ebuchosheni, kanye ne-magnetic resonance imaging (MRI), ekhombisa noma yiziphi izinguquko ebuchosheni ezingahle zihlobene nalokhu kubanjwa.

I-EEG yemizuzu engama-30 ibuye ngokwejwayelekile, obekulindelekile njengoba ngingazange ngibe nokuquleka ngesikhathi sokuhlolwa. I-MRI, ngakolunye uhlangothi, ikhombisile ukuthi i-hippocampus yami, eyingxenye ye-lobe yesikhashana elawula ukufunda nokukhumbula, yalimala. Lokhu kungalungi, okunye okubizwa ngokuthi yi-hippocampal sclerosis, kungaholela ekubanjweni okugxile, yize lokhu kungenjalo kuwo wonke umuntu.

Ukuxilongwa Nge-Epilepsy

Ezinyangeni ezimbili ezalandela, ngahlala phezu kokwaziswa kokuthi kunokuthile okungalungile ngokwemvelo engqondweni yami. Ngalesi sikhathi, konke engangikwazi ukuthi i-EEG yami yayivamile, i-MRI yami yabonisa ukungahambi kahle, futhi ngangingeke ngiqonde ukuthi noma yikuphi kwalokhu kusho ukuthini kuze kube yilapho ngibona uchwepheshe. Phakathi naleso sikhathi, ukuquleka kwami ​​kwaba kubi kakhulu. Ngasuka ekubeni nokukodwa ngosuku ukuya kokuningi, ngezinye izikhathi ngibuyela emuva futhi ngayinye ihlala noma yikuphi phakathi kwamasekhondi angu-30 kuya kumaminithi angu-2.

Ingqondo yami yazizwa inenkungu, inkumbulo yami yaqhubeka nokungilahlekisela, kwathi ngesikhathi u-Agasti ezungeza, inkulumo yami yashaya isigqi. Ukwenza imisho eyisisekelo kwakudinga wonke amandla ami futhi noma kunjalo, kwakungeke kuphume njengokuhlosiwe. Ngaba namahloni—ngethuswa ukukhuluma ukuze ngingabi yisimungulu.

Ngaphandle kokuqeda amandla ngokomzwelo nangokwengqondo, ukuquleka kwangithinta ngokomzimba. Ziye zangibangela ukuba ngiwe, ngishaye ikhanda, ngishayeke ezintweni, futhi ngizishise ngemuva kokulahlekelwa ukwazi ngesikhathi esingalungile. Ngayeka ukushayela ngenxa yokwesaba ukuthi ngingase ngilimaze othile noma mina ngokwami ​​futhi namuhla, ngemva konyaka, angikakabuyeli esihlalweni somshayeli.

Ekugcineni, ngo-Okthoba, ngabonana nodokotela wezinzwa. Wangidabula ngeMRI yami, wangikhombisa ukuthi imvubu engakwesokudla sobuchopho bami yashwabana futhi yaba ncanyana kanjani kunale engakwesobunxele. Uthe lolu hlobo lwe-malformation lungadala ukuthi ukuquleka — i-Focal Onset Impaired Awaigation Seizures, kube ngqo.Ukuxilongwa konke? I-Temporal Lobe Epilepsy (TLE), okungenzeka ukuthi isuka endaweni engaphandle noma engaphakathi ye-lobe yesikhashana, ngokusho kwe-Epilepsy Foundation. Njengoba i-hippocampus iphakathi nendawo (ngaphakathi) ye-lobe yesikhashana, bengibhekene nokuquleka okugxilile okwathinta ukwakheka kwezinkumbulo, ukuqwashisa nge-spacial, kanye nezimpendulo zemizwa.

Kungenzeka ukuthi ngazalwa ngine-malformation ku-hippocampus yami, kepha ukuquleka kwabangelwa imfiva ephezulu nezinkinga zezempilo ebenginazo ekuqaleni konyaka, ngokwe-doc yami. Imikhuhlane yabangela ukuquleka njengoba yayivutha leyo ngxenye yobuchopho bami, kodwa ukuqala kokuquleka kwakungenzeka nganoma yisiphi isikhathi, ngaphandle kwesizathu noma isexwayiso. Uthe isenzo esizedlula zonke, wukuthola imishanguzo yokulawula ukubanjwa yisifo sokuwa. Kuningi engangingakhetha kukho, kodwa ngayinye yafika nohlu olude lwemiphumela engemihle, kuhlanganise nokukhubazeka kokuzalwa uma ngangizokhulelwa. Njengoba mina nomyeni wami sasinezinhlelo zokuqala umndeni, nganquma ukuhamba neLamotrigine, okuthiwa iyona ephephile. (Okuhlobene: I-FDA Igunyaza Umuthi Osuselwa ku-CBD Ukwelapha Ukuquleka)

Ngokulandelayo, udokotela wami wangitshela ukuthi abanye abantu abanesifo sokuwa bangafa ngaphandle kwesizathu—okubizwa ngokuthi ukufa okungazelelwe okungalindelekile esithuthwaneni (SUDEP). Kwenzeka cishe kwabangu-1 kubantu abadala abangu-1 000 abanesithuthwane futhi kubeka engcupheni enkulu yeziguli ezinesifo sokuwa okungapheli okungapheli okuqhubeka nokuba mdala. Nakuba ngingaweli ngokobuchwepheshe kuleli qembu eliyingozi kakhulu, i-SUDEP iyimbangela ehamba phambili yokufa kwabantu abanokuquleka okungalawuleki, ngokusho kwe-Epilepsy Foundation. Okusho ukuthi: bekungukuthi (futhi kusenjalo) ukuthi kubaluleke kakhulu ngakha izindlela eziphephile nezisebenzayo zokulawula ukubanjwa kwami-ngibonisana nochwepheshe, ngisebenzisa imishanguzo, ngigwema izimbangela, nokuningi.

Ngalolo suku, udokotela wami wezinzwa wangiphuca nelayisense yami, ethi angikwazi ukushayela kuze kube yilapho ngingabanjwa isithuthwane okungenani izinyanga eziyisithupha. Wabuye wangitshela ukuba ngigweme ukwenza noma yini engangenza ngiquleke, ehlanganisa ukuphuza kancane, nokunciphisa ukucindezeleka, ukulala kakhulu nokungayeqi imithi. Ngaphandle kwalokho, into engcono kakhulu ebengingayenza kwakuwukuphila impilo enempilo nethemba lokuhle. Mayelana nokuzivocavoca? Asibonanga sikhona isizathu sokuthi kufanele ngiyigweme, ikakhulukazi ngoba ingasiza ngomthwalo ongokomzwelo wokubhekana nokuxilongwa kwami, echaza. (Okuhlobene: Ngiyi-Fitness Influencer Enesifo Esingabonakali Esibangela Ukuba Ngithole Isisindo)

Ngabhekana Kanjani Nokuxilongwa

Kuthathe izinyanga ezintathu ukujwayela izindlela zami zokubanjwa. Bangenza ngaba buthakathaka ngokweqile, ngaba nesicanucanu, ngaba nenkungu, futhi banginikeza nokushintsha kwemizwelo — konke okuyimiphumela emibi ejwayelekile kodwa kuyinselele nokho. Noma kunjalo, kungakapheli amasonto nje beqale ama-meds, baqala ukusebenza. Ngayeka ukuba nokuquleka kaningi, mhlawumbe okumbalwa ngesonto, futhi lapho ngikwenza, bekungekho kakhulu. Ngisho nanamuhla, nginezinsuku lapho ngiqala khona ukunqekuzisa ikhanda etafuleni lami, ngilwa nokukhuthaza futhi ngizizwe sengathi angikho emzimbeni wami uqobo — i-aura (okungukuthi, ungabhekana nakho uma uhlushwa yimigraines ye-ocular). Yize la ma-aura engakathuthuki ekuqothulweni kusukela ngoFebhuwari (🤞🏽), empeleni "ayisixwayiso" sokubanjwa futhi, ngakho-ke, angenza ngikhathazeke ngokuthi lowo uyeza — futhi lokho kungakhathaza uma futhi nini Nginama-aura ayi-10-15 ngosuku.

Mhlawumbe ingxenye enzima kunazo zonke mayelana nokutholakala kanye nokuzivumelanisa nesimo sami esisha esivamile, esizokhulunywa ngaso, bekuwukutshela abantu ngakho. Udokotela wami wachaza ukuthi ukukhuluma ngokuxilongwa kwami ​​kungase kukhulule, ingasaphathwa eyobalulekile kulabo abaseduze kwami ​​uma kwenzeka ngiquleka futhi ngidinga usizo. Ngaqaphela ngokushesha ukuthi akekho owaziyo ngesifo sokuwa—futhi ukuzama ukuchaza kwakungikhungathekisa, ngisho nokuncane.

“Kodwa awubonakali ugula,” kusho abanye abangani kimi. Abanye babuze ukuthi ngike ngazama "ukucabanga kude" kokuquleka. Okungcono nakakhulu, ngatshelwa ukuba ngithole induduzo eqinisweni lokuthi “okungenani ngangingenalo uhlobo olubi lwesithuthwane,” njengokungathi sikhona uhlobo oluhle.

Ngathola ukuthi ngaso sonke isikhathi lapho isithuthwane sami senziwa buthaka ukuphawula nokusikisela okungazi lutho, ngangizizwa ngibuthakathaka — futhi ngangizabalaza ukuze ngihlukane nokuxilongwa kwami.

Kwadingeka ngisebenze nomelaphi nothando oluningi nokungeseka ukuze ngibone ukuthi ukugula kwami ​​kwakungadingeki futhi kungangichazi. Kodwa lokhu akwenzekanga ngobusuku obubodwa. Ngakho-ke, noma nini lapho ngiphelelwa amandla ngokomzwelo, ngangizama ukuwakha ngokwenyama.

Ngayo yonke inkinga yami yezempilo onyakeni odlule, ukuya ejimini kwakuthathe isihlalo esingemuva. Woza ngoJanuwari 2020, lapho inkungu ebangelwe ukuquleka kwami ​​iqala ukuphuma, nginqume ukuqala ukugijima futhi. Kuyinto eyayinginike induduzo enkulu lapho kutholakala ukuthi nginesifo sokucindezeleka ngisemusha, futhi ngangithemba ukuthi kuzokwenza okufanayo manje. Futhi uqagele ini? Kwaba khona—phela, ukugijima kugcwele izinzuzo zengqondo nomzimba. Uma kwakukhona usuku lapho ngangilwa khona namazwi ami futhi ngazizwa nginamahloni, ngabopha amateki ami ngakuqeda. Lapho ngiba nokwesaba ebusuku ngenxa yezindondo zami, ngangingena ngamamayela athile ngosuku olulandelayo. Ukugijima kusanda kungenza ngizizwe ngingcono: ngingenaso isithuthwane nami ngokwami, umuntu olawulayo, okwaziyo, nonamandla.

Ngenkathi uFebhuwari ezungeza, ngenza nokuqeqesha amandla kwaba umgomo futhi ngaqala ukusebenza nomqeqeshi eGITIT Training. Ngiqale ngohlelo lwamaviki ayisithupha olunikeza ukusebenza kwesitayela sesifunda ngesonto. Umgomo kwakuwukugcwala okuqhubekayo, okusho ukuthi ukwandisa ubunzima bokusebenza ngokwandisa ivolumu, amandla, nokumelana. (Kuhlobene: Izinzuzo Ezinkulu eziyi-11 Zezempilo Nokufaneleka Zokuphakamisa Izisindo)

Isonto ngalinye nganginamandla futhi ngangikwazi ukuphakamisa kakhulu. Lapho ngiqala, ngangingakaze ngisebenzise i-barbell empilweni yami. Ngangikwazi ukwenza ama-squats angu-8 kuphela ngamakhilogremu angu-95 kanye nokunyathelisa kwamabhentshi amahlanu kumakhilogremu angu-55. Ngemva kwamasonto ayisithupha okuqeqeshwa, ngaphinda kabili ama-squat reps ami futhi ngakwazi ukucindezela amabhentshi angu-13 ngesisindo esifanayo. Ngazizwa nginamandla futhi ngalokho kwanginika amandla okubhekana nezikhathi ezinzima zosuku nosuku.

Engikufundile

Namuhla, cishe nginezinyanga ezine ngingabanjwa, okungenza ngibe ngomunye wababanenhlanhla. Kunabantu abayizigidi ezingama-3.4 abaphila nesifo sokuwa e-U.S., Ngokusho kwe-CDC, futhi kwabaningi babo, kungathatha iminyaka ukubanjwa yisifo sokuwa. Ngezinye izikhathi, imithi ayisebenzi, lapho kwenzeka ukuhlinzwa kobuchopho nezinye izinqubo ezihlaselayo kungase kudingeke. Kwabanye, inhlanganisela yemithi ehlukene nemithamo iyadingeka, okungathatha isikhathi eside ukuthola.

Yileyo nto ngesifo sokuwa—sihlasela wonke umuntu. ongashadile. umuntu. ngokuhlukile — futhi imiphumela yako idlulela ngalé kokuquleka uqobo. Uma kuqhathaniswa nabantu abadala abangenalesi sifo, abantu abanesifo sokuwa banezinga eliphakeme lokunakwa okuyisifo (ADHD) nokudangala. Bese kuba nenhlamba ehambisana nakho.

Ukugijima kuvele kwangenza ngazizwa ngincono: ngingenaso isithuthwane futhi ngiba nokuningi ngokwami, umuntu ophethe, onekhono, nonamandla.

Ngisafunda ukungazihluleli ngamehlo omunye umuntu. Ukuphila nesifo esingabonakali kuyakwenza ngakho kunzima ukungakwenzi. Kwangithatha umsebenzi omkhulu ukuba ngingavumeli ukungazi kwabantu kuchaze indlela engizizwa ngayo ngami. Kodwa manje ngiyaziqhenya ngami nangekhono lami lokwenza izinto, kusukela ekugijimeni kuye ekuhambeni imbulunga yonke (ubhubhane lwangaphambi kwe-coronavirus, kunjalo) ngoba ngiyawazi amandla adingekayo ukuzenza.

Kuwo wonke amaqhawe ami esithuthwane laphaya, ngiyaziqhenya ngokuba yingxenye yomphakathi onamandla futhi osekelayo. Ngiyazi ukuthi ukukhuluma ngokuxilongwa kwakho kunzima kakhulu, kodwa kokuhlangenwe nakho kwami, kungase futhi kukhulule. Akugcini lapho, kodwa kusisondeza ekuqedeni isithuthwane kanye nokuqwashisa ngokugula. Ngakho-ke, khuluma iqiniso lakho uma ukwazi, futhi uma kungenjalo, yazi ukuthi awuwedwa emzabalazweni wakho.

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