Usitshele: I-Beth of Beth's Journey

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Ngangikhuluphele isikhathi eside ngangikhumbula, noma ngibheka emuva, isisindo sami asizange siqale ukuphuma ekulawuleni kuze kufike ekolishi. Noma kunjalo, bengihlala ngiyi-chubbier encane kunabaningi futhi ngenkathi ngazi ukuthi yonke ingane ithathwa ngokuthile, izibazi zajula kakhulu ngenxa yokuthi ngangenziwe inhlekisa ngesisindo sami ebusheni bami bonke.

Ngenkathi ngiqala ikolishi, bekungokokuqala ngiphethe ukwenza zonke izinqumo mayelana nokuthi ngidlani nokuthi ngenzeni ngesikhathi sami samahhala, futhi kungaleso sikhathi lapho izinto zaqala khona ukushibilika zingalawuleki. Ngichezukile esikalini ngakho angikwazi ukusho ngokuqinisekile, kepha phakathi naleyo minyaka emithathu yokuqala yasekolishi ngafaka endaweni ethile phakathi kwamakhilogremu angama-50 kuya kwangama-70, nganciphisa isikali cishe kumaphawundi angama-250.

Ngazibonela ngawami imiphumela ukukhuluphala okungaba nayo empilweni yomuntu lapho ubaba ehlaselwa yisifo senhliziyo eneminyaka engama-40, futhi kwatholakala ukuthi nginesifo sikashukela soHlobo II, umfutho wegazi ophakeme, i-cholesterol ephezulu, ne-apnea yokulala, konke lokhu kuhlobene nokukhuluphala. Ngangazi ukuthi ngisendleleni efanayo uma ngiqhubeka nemikhuba engangiye ngaba nayo ekolishi, futhi ngangingakufuni lokho mina noma ikusasa lami.

Nginqume ukukushintsha unomphela lokho ngoMashi 3, 2009, lapho ngijoyina abakwa-Weight Watchers futhi ngashintsha impilo yami kwaba kuhle. Kungithathe isikhathi eside ukwehlisa amakhilogremu angama-58 ebengisele nawo ukuba ngilahle lapho ngijoyina okokugcina, kepha uma ngibheka emuva ngicabanga ukuthi inqubekelaphambili ehamba kancane ibidingeka kimi ukuze ngikwazi ukuthuthukisa izinguquko zendlela yokuphila nokuthuthukisa imikhuba ebizokwenza induku.

Ingxenye enzima kunazo zonke kimi ekulahlekeni kwesisindo futhi manje ukugcina isisindo sami kungukulinganisela. Bengihlala ngazi ukuthi yini okufanele ngiyidle, kepha ukulawulwa kwesabelo bekungekho emhlabeni wami wabangaphambi kwesisindo, noma ukulinganisela nganoma iyiphi indlela. Kuphakathi kokuthi ngidla amaphiko, i-pizza, nama-nachos, noma ngizame ukungadli lutho olungenampilo ukude ngize ngishelele, ngizibone njengesehluleki, futhi ngivele ngicwile emikhubeni engemihle futhi.

Kulo lonke uhambo lwami, esinye sezifundo ezinkulu engizifundile ukuthi ama-slip ups kanye nokuwa phansi akunakugwenywa futhi kuzoqhubeka ukwenzeka. Angichazwa ama-slip up futhi ngithathwa njengesehluleki noma njengomuntu omubi; Esikhundleni salokho ngichazwa yindlela engibuyela ngayo futhi ngifunde kulokho okuhlangenwe nakho.

Ngicabanga ukuthi isimanga esikhulu esivela ekwehliseni isisindo bekungekhona ukuthi ngishintshe kangakanani ngaphandle - yilokho ebengazi ukuthi kuzokwenzeka uma ngiguqula izindlela zami. Kunalokho, kwaba ukuthi ngishintshe kangakanani ngaphakathi futhi ngakwazi ukubeka phambili mina kanye nezidingo zami. Ngangingakaze ngizibeke kuqala noma ngenze isikhathi salokho okwakudingeka ngikwenze, futhi kwakungenza ngingakwazi ukupha abanye kakhulu. Ngingumuntu wami omuhle kakhulu uma ngidla kahle, ngivocavoca umzimba, futhi ngithatha isikhathi "sokungibonisa" ukucabanga nokuntywila ekhanda kuqala empilweni enempilo, nokuyinto engiyithandayo.

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