Izindaba Zokubuyiselwa Kwe-HIV: Ukufika Ekungabonakali

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• Ukuxilongwa
• Kungaba kubi kakhulu?
• Uma ngangiqwayiza, ngangibona ukukhanya
• Okusha kimi
• Okungatholakali = Okungenakudluliswa (U = U)

Angisoze ngalukhohlwa usuku engathola ngalo i-HIV. Okwamanje lapho ngizwa lawo mazwi, "Ngiyaxolisa Jennifer, uhlolwe unegciwane lesandulela ngculaza," konke kwaba mnyama. Impilo ebengihlala ngiyazi inyamalale ngokuphazima kweso.

Nginguthunjana kubathathu, ngazalwa futhi ngakhulela eCalifornia enhle enelanga ngumama wami ongayedwa. Ngakhula ngijabule futhi ngijwayelekile, ngathola iziqu ekolishi, ngaba ngumama ongayedwa wabathathu.

Kodwa impilo yashintsha ngemuva kokutholakala kwami ​​nge-HIV. Ngokushesha ngezwa amahloni agxilile, ukuzisola, nokwesaba.

Ukushintsha iminyaka yenhlamba kufana nokukha intaba ngomuthi wokuxubha. Namuhla, ngizama ukusiza abanye ukuthi babone ukuthi iyini i-HIV nokuthi ayiyona.

Ukufinyelela esimweni esingabonakali kwangifaka ukulawula impilo yami futhi.Ukungatholakali kunikeza abantu abaphila ne-HIV incazelo entsha nethemba ebelingenzeki esikhathini esedlule.

Nakhu okungithathile ukufika lapho, nokuthi ukungatholakali kusho ukuthini kimi.

Ukuxilongwa

Ngesikhathi sokuxilongwa kwami, ngangineminyaka engu-45 ubudala, impilo yayimnandi, izingane zami zazizinhle, futhi ngangithandana. I-HIV yayine angikaze wangena engqondweni yami. Ukusho ukuthi umhlaba wami uphenduke wabhekabheka phansi ngaso leso sikhathi ukungathathi hlangothi kwazo zonke izinto ezingekho.

Ngiwabambile amagama ngokwamukela okucisha amathumbu ngokushesha ngoba izivivinyo azinamanga. Bengidinga izimpendulo ngoba bese kuphele amasonto ngigula. Ngacabanga ukuthi kwakuwuhlobo oluthile lwama-parasite olwandle kusuka ku-surfing. Bengicabanga ukuthi ngiwazi kahle umzimba wami.

Ukuzwa ukuthi i-HIV kwakuyimbangela yokujuluka kwami ​​ebusuku, imfiva, ubuhlungu bomzimba, isicanucanu, kanye ne-thrush kwenza izimpawu zaqina neqiniso elishaqisayo lakho konke. Ngenzeni ukuze ngithole lokhu?

Engangikucabanga nje ukuthi konke engangikumele njengomama, uthisha, intombi, nakho konke engangikuthemba kwakungeyona into engangiyifanele ngoba i-HIV iyona engichazayo manje.

Kungaba kubi kakhulu?

Cishe izinsuku ezinhlanu ngitholakele, ngathola ukuthi isibalo sami se-CD4 sasiku-84. Ibanga elijwayelekile liphakathi kuka-500 no-1,500. Ngafunda nokuthi ngine-pneumonia ne-AIDS. Lesi ngesinye isibhakela samaswidi, nesinye isithiyo okufanele ubhekane naso.

Ngokomzimba, ngangibuthakathaka futhi ngandlela thile ngangidinga ukuthola amandla okuphatha isisindo somqondo salokho okwakuphonselwa kimi.

Elinye lamagama okuqala eza engqondweni yami ngemuva nje kokutholakala kwengculaza kwakuwubuwula. Ngengathekiso ngaphonsa izandla zami phezulu emoyeni futhi ngahleka ubuhlanya bento eyenzeka empilweni yami. Lokhu bekungelona icebo lami.

Bengifuna ukondla izingane zami futhi ngibe nobudlelwano obude, obunothando, nobenelisa ngokocansi nesoka lami. Isoka lami lahlolwa lingenalo, kodwa kwakungangicaceli ukuthi ngabe okunye kwalokhu kungenzeka yini uma uphila ne-HIV.

Ikusasa belingaziwa. Engingakwenza kuphela ukugxila kulokho engingakwazi ukukulawula, futhi lokho bekungcono.

Uma ngangiqwayiza, ngangibona ukukhanya

Uchwepheshe wami we-HIV unikeze lawa mazwi ethemba ngesikhathi ngiqokwa okokuqala: "Ngiyathembisa ukuthi konke lokhu kuzokhunjulwa." Ngiwabambe ngqi lawo mazwi ngesikhathi ngilulama. Ngomthamo ngamunye omusha wemithi, kancane kancane ngaqala ukuzizwa ngiba ngcono futhi ngiba ngcono.

Ngingalindelanga kimi, lapho umzimba wami usululama, amahloni ami nawo aqala ukukhuphuka. Umuntu engangihlala ngimazi waqala ukuvela ekushaqekeni nasekuhlukumezeni kokutholakala kwami ​​nokugula.

Ngangicabanga ukuthi ukuzwa ukugula kuzoba yingxenye “yesijeziso” sokuthola igciwane lesandulela ngculaza, noma ngabe sivela egciwaneni ngokwalo noma emithini yokulwa negciwane lengculaza okwakudingeka ngiyiphuze manje. Kunoma ikuphi, angikaze ngilindele ukuthi okujwayelekile kuzoba inketho futhi.

Okusha kimi

Lapho kutholakala ukuthi une-HIV, usheshe ufunde ukuthi izibalo ze-CD4, imithwalo yegciwane, kanye nemiphumela engatholakali amagama amasha ozowasebenzisa impilo yakho yonke. Sifuna ama-CD4 ethu aphakeme nemithwalo yegciwane ephansi yethu, futhi okungatholakali impumelelo esiyifunayo. Lokhu kusho ukuthi izinga legciwane egazini lethu liphansi kakhulu alikwazi ukutholwa.

Ngokuthatha i-antiretroviral yami nsuku zonke nokuthola isimo esingatholakali, manje kwakusho ukuthi ngangilawula futhi leli gciwane lalingangihambisi ngentambo yalo.

Isimo esingatholakali siyinto okufanele siyigubhe. Kusho ukuthi umuthi wakho uyasebenza futhi nempilo yakho ayisaphazanyiswa yi-HIV. Ungaya ocansini ngaphandle kwekhondomu uma ukhetha ngaphandle kokukhathazeka ngokudlulisela igciwane kumlingani wakho ocansi.

Ukungatholakali kwakusho ukuthi ngangiyimi futhi - omusha kimi.

Angizizwa sengathi i-HIV iqondisa umkhumbi wami. Ngizizwa ngilawula ngokuphelele. Lokho kukhulula ngokumangazayo uma uphila negciwane elithathe izimpilo ezingaphezu kwezigidi ezingama-32 selokhu kuqale ubhadane.

Okungatholakali = Okungenakudluliswa (U = U)

Kubantu abaphila ne-HIV, ukungatholakali yisimo sezempilo esifanelekile. Kusho nokuthi ngeke usadlulisela igciwane kumlingani ocansini. Lolu wulwazi olushintsha umdlalo olunganciphisa ukucwaswa ngeshwa okusasekhona nanamuhla.

Ekupheleni kosuku, i-HIV yigciwane nje - igciwane elinyonyobayo. Ngemithi etholakalayo namuhla, singamemezela ngokuziqhenya ukuthi i-HIV ayisona isimo esilawulekayo esingapheli. Kepha uma siqhubeka siyivumela ukuthi isenze sizizwe sinamahloni, ukwesaba, noma uhlobo oluthile lokujeziswa, i-HIV iyanqoba.

Ngemuva kweminyaka engama-35 yobhadane olugijime kakhulu emhlabeni, akusona isikhathi sokuthi uhlanga lwesintu ekugcineni lushaye lesi siqhwaga? Ukubeka wonke umuntu ophila negciwane lesandulela ngculaza esimweni esingatholakali kuyisu lethu elihle kakhulu. Ngiyiqembu elingatholakali kuze kube sekupheleni!

UJennifer Vaughan ungummeli we-HIV + kanye ne-vlogger. Ukuze uthole okwengeziwe ngendaba yakhe ye-HIV kanye nama-vlogs ansuku zonke ngempilo yakhe ene-HIV, ungamlandela I-YouTube futhi Instagram, futhi asekele ukumela kwakhe lapha.